when this kind of feeling occur, i always need to tlk to someone..not cuz i want them to pity me or anything..i just wanted hav someone there..so i would know im not by myself..tlking to my friends in china is making me feel a lot better..they kno me the best..no culture difference..they kno wut im tlking about..the only thing is they dont really know wuts going on here..so its hard for them to understand..nobody really understand wut im going thru or went thru..theyre not me.and theyll nvr be..im sry if i was ever annoying..im sry if i was ever mean..im sry for acting like a child all the time bt thts how i am..i luv all my friends..thank u for being there for me..i kno things r getting annoying when i start tlking bout this grl..everyones prob sick of hearing all those little things..i dunno y im writing this..and dunno where im going with this..bt i luv all of u…