i run away when im sad. push everyone everything away. when i realize that it really doesnt bother me that much i regret the things ive done.  then i see the things that made me upset. feelings r still clear. emotions come and go. i dunno if things i say make any difference. at least i said it. i dont wanna care about the outcome. i dont know what i  want. since its not always gonna come true. i loved the world without u. peaceful. but when im here. i cant keep my eyes/heart off of u. look what uve done to me. i hate u. u dont know how much i miss the old u. u dont know what u meant for me. u dont know how it feels when tear fill up my eyes but i dont want them to fall. u dont know anything yet ur still hurting me.y cant i just let it go. like uve nvr been in my life. i hate myself. i hate when i care about u. i hate when i pretend i dont like u and get close to u then get hurt even more. i seriously need to realize that we are not in the same planet. >:(  GO AWAY!!  T.T